How many times do we begin something over, only to wind up back where we started once again? I've heard it said that the definition of insanity is to keep repeating the same actions and expect a different result...or something like that. Sometimes I feel like I'm just banging my head into a brick wall, not coming away with any change but the bloody head.
I'm drawing the conclusion that each time I begin again, I may start out thinking that this time I'm going to do it God's way - but truthfully, I just try a way that seems 'new' to me. If I were honestly listening for God to show me His way, things would turn out different.
The words 'obedient' and 'submission' and 'steadfastness' keep echoing in my mind, almost at a scream sometimes. I know it's God. Seriously, He is SO patient with me! Still, I'm wrestling with just what it is that I'm resisting so concretely. It's probably as obvious as the nose on my face (have you seen my nose? LOL) It's so much easier to look around at your friends and see what they're missing, or doing wrong. Yet it can be so hard to look in the mirror and see what WE are missing or doing wrong.
In the book of Galatians chapter 3 verse 3 God says to His people "Are ye so foolish? having begun in the Spirit, are ye now made perfect by the flesh?" (KJV)
I think one puzzle piece I have out of place is that I try to make myself perfect, myself, instead of allowing God to work it all out His way. To get that puzzle piece in place, I have to get my flesh out of the way!
You might observe me at some time acting foolish. But I don't want God to see me that way. I covet your prayers as I endeavor to leave the flesh behind and seek His Spirit! <3