Monday, March 23, 2020

Dusty Feet

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When I’m reading a book, I ponder why the author phrased things the way they did. I challenge the ideas I meet; I question the authority with which they write. But because I’d have worded something differently, doesn’t mean I don’t totally love what they’re saying.


Sometimes I read a book where I think, this author gets me! It’s exciting to meet someone through their writing. I begin to feel like I know them. I hope you all get to know me a bit, too, when you read what I write. I hope you ponder what I share and find what’s in it for you, perhaps a completely different take-away.


When I find nuggets I have to share, they aren’t chicken nuggets, they’re golden nuggets that excite my heart and overwhelm my mind, sometimes to the point that I can’t successfully express myself.

Here’s one of those nuggets:

“Jesus wants to move our focus from the sin to the forgiveness.” – Uncommon Questions from an Extraordinary Savior, by Christopher Bozung.

The quote comes from chapter seven, exploring the love and gratefulness that pours from a woman’s tear-filled eyes as she washes and anoints the feet of Jesus. An onlooker, the host of the gathering, a man named Simon, sits there, judging. But Jesus sees everything in his heart.

Jesus sees everything in our heart, too. He sees when my eyebrows rise when a woman walks into the church showing waaaaaay too much cleavage or way too much thigh. I have to mentally smack myself for judging her, and try to do it without attaching my excuses, like, “But, Lord, who does she think she’s impressing? You or everyone looking at her?”

I know my heart; I don’t know hers. 

God knows and loves us both. 

Whether her dress is a bad example for younger girls, or a temptation for most of the men around us, I cannot let myself fall into the trap of judging her. God will change her from the inside out. Buying less sexy dresses may come someday. Her heart loving Him – that’s HUGE! And, I’ll bet she’ll be just as eye catching in appropriate clothing. And I may need to mentally smack myself for feeling jealously over that, too!

I think my favorite line in the chapter is, “A sinner touching Jesus!”

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I feel the same sweet release I used to feel every time I sang the Ray Boltz song, “Touching Him” in church. Unworthy made worthy. Sinfulness made sinless. Filthy made clean. My heart fully exposed before my loving, gracious, merciful God – joyfully set free from all condemnation. How can I not cry!?

On a side note, I wonder if the woman in the story is the woman who was thrown at Jesus’s feet, shamed; caught in adultery. She dared not look up at His face, but she watched His dusty feet, waiting for condemnation that never came. She didn’t try to defend herself, or justify her sin as we might, she fell apart over His forgiveness and returned later to wash those same feet with her tears.

Saturday, March 21, 2020

What Does He Want From Me?




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"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? (Matthew 16:26)
With these questions Jesus asks, he is saying, 'if you are going to be my disciple, I want something.' What is it he's asking of you?"
- Uncommon Questions from an Extraordinary Savior, Christopher Bozung

I routinely ask myself, when the subject comes to mind, ‘What does Jesus ask of me? What does He want from me?’

Flippantly, I can say, He wants my life. That’s the correct answer, right? He wants all of me! He wants me to trust Him with, put into His hands, my health, my relationships, my finances, my future, my successes and my failures, my children, my grandchildren, my siblings and my mom – my friends.

But, what does that really look like?

When reading the questions Jesus asked, I can smugly say, ‘I haven’t gained the whole world, so I’m not in any danger of forfeiting my soul.’

But, on a lazy day – would I forfeit my soul (would I risk doing the will of God) for…… a nap? Or for quiet time with a good book? Even the GOOD BOOK?

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I don’t want to sound like the voice of condemnation, because I’m not. My God serves up fresh grace by the second when we need it (all the time).

But, in essence, am I putting my nap, or reading time or TV time or game time - before what God’s asked me to do?

I guess that depends on what God’s asked me to do in the moment. If I’m spending time with Him in His Word, surely, He must be pleased. But, if He’s asked me to go over and check on my neighbor and I brush it off, saying – after some quiet time reading the Bible, or after a quick nap, or after I mop the floor…. He knows I’m blowing Him off.

Ouch!

Is He mad at me? No. I don’t believe so.

Is He disappointed with me? No. I don’t believe so. How can we be disappointed when we already know the outcome of something? He knew if I’d respond to Him with selfishness or obedience.

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“For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things. Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God.” – 1 John 3:20-21 (KJV)

The real question here is – why do I ever respond to Him with selfishness?

As humans, most of us want to give up when someone fails us time after time after time. We just stop relying on them. We don’t stop loving them, but we stop asking much, of them.

Do you ever feel like God’s not “using” you anymore? Hmmmm…. 
Are we giving Him reason not to rely on us?

Great news! His patience FAR outweighs ours. He has faith in us, even when we don’t have faith in ourselves.

New assignments? New opportunities to put God’s will first! New opportunities to obey Him; to pick up our cross and follow Him!

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